A "Wall"

We have been together for so long that sometimes I wonder why I had to have you.
All the mean words, the sad days, knowing I couldn't come to you.
It all hurts.
I feel alone because the person I need is the person I can't even reach.

You are the person I have to hide my heart from.
I want someone who claims responsibility for our lives, and for each other, that cares deeply, that could love intensely, that would always protect us and lift us up.
I could cry because it hurts so much; so many feelings that words can't describe.
Yet I keep holding on to hope... I know I still love you and then I remember some of your better qualities.....

Your generous, your full of mercy, and forgiveness, and when your nice, everything seems better. Mentally your strong, but that strength has been your weakness.
You've built a wall that wouldn't allow you to feel compassion, emotion, or connection. A "Wall" of pride is the protector of our family.
When everything falls, what is pride worth?

Could you let go of pride to let me in and really take a chance to love me; knowing that you could lose, and be hurt, but love by taking a chance?
I've loved you like that! My heart has been hurt so many days, and pride is not my choice.
I am not so proud that I can't keep choosing to love you, and be hopeful, offering love with a smile.
I think your something wonderful!
I want you to notice me, and love me, and take a chance!