A Victim Of Love

I try and try to find you,
But you're never there,
I try and try to cry to you,
But you never care,
How I love someone who isn't even there?
I try and try to get over you,
But in my heart you stay,
I try and try to make it end,
But I can do is pretend,
I'm pretending,
Always pretending,
I pretend to not care that you're never there,
I pretend that everything's fine,
Even when there's chaos in my mind,
I pretend you give a shit,
That I'm going through this,
When it comes to the issues,
You can't pick and choose,
Deal with this,
Be a man!
Goddamn, this wasn't the plan!
We were supposed to work,
You and I,
Now all I do is cry,
Is this what they meant when they said,
You'll never forget,
You'll never forget the one who made it all fall apart,
How can I, when he's still in my heart?
How come they don't tell you,
That when it comes to love,
There's nothing you can do,
That when you fall,
There's a chance you can lose it all,
They only tell you it's beautiful,
That lies!
It isn't at all,
At least not the way I fall,
You fall fast and hard,
And it hurts,
And you try to make it stop,
But that only makes it worse,
You have tears in your eyes,
And it doesn't feel right,
But you fall anyway,
And to him it was just another day,
When you are in love you're blind, you're numb,
Let's admit it,
You're stupid, you're dumb,
If it's for real well that's fine,
My story isn't that kind,
It's the kind when you lose your mind,
If it's love you want,
Then pain you'll find