A Thought That is My Life

Every night as I go to sleep,
I look out to the blood-red sunset.

And think that it's just another day
That has passed.
And I think to myself that
Maybe, just maybe this will be the
Night that I won't wake up.

And maybe then my suffering will be
at its end.
If I'm no longer here then
none of the pain, and hurt, and
also the sense of not belonging
will no longer continue to haunt me.

If I succeed in this and don't
Wake up then I'm finally free.
And have successfully escaped
The living hell that is my life.