A Journey To The Heart - Chapter 14 (Latter Half)
I learned something that day, something that made my love stronger for her, something she changed in me, which is still a mystery for me... Narrated by Ian Summors.
Two days passed and she didn't show any sign of her. I tried her number like hundred times and all I received was a disappointment, so decided to confront her, but she never made an eye contact and always runs away making an excuse. I am getting frustrated the way she is behaving. Things were so right two days back and my one foolish step just blew away everything. I wanted back her enthusiasm, her happiness, her smiling face. I wanted her back like a life in a body.
I was mailing it to the 'soul searcher', to help me with this problem. But like Yana, I think my anonymous friend as well was upset of me of something that I didn't receive any reciprocation since I came to India, which was very surprising. Still, I didn't stop writing because I knew it was my first and the last ray of hope to give peace to my restless heart.
"Hey bro... you need to come to Yana's house... right now." Ryan inhaled.
"What happened?" I asked, putting down my laptop.
"Will you come with me?" He ran out of the room in an unknown excitement, ignoring my question.
I quickly ran to my window to catch the glimpse of what was happening in her room? I couldn't open my window as it was drizzling outside and wiped the dew off from the pane to scan the view. My heart broke into countless pieces, as what I espied was hard for me to convince. It was Zen taking her in his arms. All I could see was Zen's back at me with her hands on his back and her face, overshadowed with his face in a kiss. I felt as if someone has suddenly sucked away all the energy from me and I was left with this lifeless skin, waiting to be doomed in any second.
Was that the reason she was running away from me? How could she even think of kissing me back when she had feelings for Zen? Why didn't she tell about their relationship? Was unveiling it a big deal than playing with my feelings? I was burning inside with pain and hatred and with all those ever getting questions' answers.
"Bro, are you coming or not?" Ryan called out from the door.
"Yeah... I am coming... Now I want to...." I whispered dragging my eyes away.
Ryan and I sat on the couch adjacent to the one on which Aahna and Sarah were sitting and giggling.
"Hey," Aahna smiled. "So the busy bee is finally here."
Sarah laughed.
I didn't react as I was not in a mood of taking any of her tease. The place turned so suffocating that I wanted to run away, but on the other hand I wanted to see her... I wanted to see from where she collects the guts to face me, how she even manages a smile after all that happened between us.
"Hey..." She entered with a grin looking at Ryan with a cup of coffee.
She was wearing a navy blue pajama and a white full sleeve knitted sweater with her hair falling over her shoulders and took her place between Aahna and Sarah, and led her head onto Sarah's lap.
"Buddyyyyy... How are you doing?" Zen's voice broke my attention and he came striding towards me and hugged.
"I am good... How are you?" I answered softly with a forced smile.
"Ok..." Zen sighed. "So now that everyone is here... let me do the honors...."
Zen moved towards her couch and bent on his knees with a ring in his hand.
I don't know why I was still alive in that moment, seeing myself as a paradigm of mockery and tearing myself apart slowly and steadily with no tears in eyes. She didn't even think of looking at me once. I felt as if my body was set on fire and my weak legs would break down any moment. It was the first time in my life, I actually realized that I was in love, the love which I thought would enlighten the carnival of my rusted feelings, but I was so wrong. It was my fault, I couldn't see my feelings fostering the roots of flawed hopes which were destined to emanate in me, to turn futile.
"The days I was far from you, I actually realized what was missing in me... I won't take much time and come to the point... Will you marry me?" Zen proposed.
Aahna, Sarah and she were looking at him with their jaws dropped as if totally oblivious of Zen's plan.
"Oh my God... Oh my God... Oh my God...." She chanted it like hundred times, getting on her foot and hugged him tightly.
"Dude, today you proved... you are the Yana Seth's best friend." She stressed out her last words echoing and whispered something in his ears and they both laughed.
"I think I should no more kill this best moment..." She announced.
"Always excited..." Aahna passed a comment at her.
"Ah, c'mon... as if I care." She replied, taking her place beside Ryan.
"What the hell is going on?" I was screaming inside in confusion.
"Ok, so where were you Mr. Qazi?" Sarah hunched over Zen, blushing.
"Will you marry me Sarah?"
"Are you sure?" Sarah offered her hand to him.
"I don't want to be..." And he finally did the honors and pulled her in his arms.
"It's party time..." Aahna hailed.
"Party! Party! Partyyyy." Yana exclaimed excitingly and shook Zen's shoulder like a child, making him consider her request.
I was looking everything like an asshole, fighting back to hide the cornucopia of pain, tears and remorse, which was secretly brawling within me to ooze out. On one hand, I was somewhere relaxed, but on the other hand, was filled with guilt for all those baseless thoughts which grew in me for her, moments back. I learned something that day, something that made my love stronger for her, something she changed in me, which is still a mystery for me. I was dying to take her in my arms, dying to tell her I can't live without her anymore, dying to caress her, but I had to figure out what was she hiding from me if it wasn't Zen?
It was 7 in the evening and we all were waiting in my car for Yana, to explore a place called 'Acme of dreams' which according to them was one of the most mesmerizing places in Shimla, settled in seclusion in the arms of beauty and covered with elevated mountains, outlined with two silently crawling lakes in the mist.
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Penny - Thank you dear.
Mayuri - Hmm, it's good to know one more name of one of my readers. Thanks for appreciating my work dear.
I was mailing it to the 'soul searcher', to help me with this problem. But like Yana, I think my anonymous friend as well was upset of me of something that I didn't receive any reciprocation since I came to India, which was very surprising. Still, I didn't stop writing because I knew it was my first and the last ray of hope to give peace to my restless heart.
"Hey bro... you need to come to Yana's house... right now." Ryan inhaled.
"What happened?" I asked, putting down my laptop.
"Will you come with me?" He ran out of the room in an unknown excitement, ignoring my question.
I quickly ran to my window to catch the glimpse of what was happening in her room? I couldn't open my window as it was drizzling outside and wiped the dew off from the pane to scan the view. My heart broke into countless pieces, as what I espied was hard for me to convince. It was Zen taking her in his arms. All I could see was Zen's back at me with her hands on his back and her face, overshadowed with his face in a kiss. I felt as if someone has suddenly sucked away all the energy from me and I was left with this lifeless skin, waiting to be doomed in any second.
Was that the reason she was running away from me? How could she even think of kissing me back when she had feelings for Zen? Why didn't she tell about their relationship? Was unveiling it a big deal than playing with my feelings? I was burning inside with pain and hatred and with all those ever getting questions' answers.
"Bro, are you coming or not?" Ryan called out from the door.
"Yeah... I am coming... Now I want to...." I whispered dragging my eyes away.
Ryan and I sat on the couch adjacent to the one on which Aahna and Sarah were sitting and giggling.
"Hey," Aahna smiled. "So the busy bee is finally here."
Sarah laughed.
I didn't react as I was not in a mood of taking any of her tease. The place turned so suffocating that I wanted to run away, but on the other hand I wanted to see her... I wanted to see from where she collects the guts to face me, how she even manages a smile after all that happened between us.
"Hey..." She entered with a grin looking at Ryan with a cup of coffee.
She was wearing a navy blue pajama and a white full sleeve knitted sweater with her hair falling over her shoulders and took her place between Aahna and Sarah, and led her head onto Sarah's lap.
"Buddyyyyy... How are you doing?" Zen's voice broke my attention and he came striding towards me and hugged.
"I am good... How are you?" I answered softly with a forced smile.
"Ok..." Zen sighed. "So now that everyone is here... let me do the honors...."
Zen moved towards her couch and bent on his knees with a ring in his hand.
I don't know why I was still alive in that moment, seeing myself as a paradigm of mockery and tearing myself apart slowly and steadily with no tears in eyes. She didn't even think of looking at me once. I felt as if my body was set on fire and my weak legs would break down any moment. It was the first time in my life, I actually realized that I was in love, the love which I thought would enlighten the carnival of my rusted feelings, but I was so wrong. It was my fault, I couldn't see my feelings fostering the roots of flawed hopes which were destined to emanate in me, to turn futile.
"The days I was far from you, I actually realized what was missing in me... I won't take much time and come to the point... Will you marry me?" Zen proposed.
Aahna, Sarah and she were looking at him with their jaws dropped as if totally oblivious of Zen's plan.
"Oh my God... Oh my God... Oh my God...." She chanted it like hundred times, getting on her foot and hugged him tightly.
"Dude, today you proved... you are the Yana Seth's best friend." She stressed out her last words echoing and whispered something in his ears and they both laughed.
"I think I should no more kill this best moment..." She announced.
"Always excited..." Aahna passed a comment at her.
"Ah, c'mon... as if I care." She replied, taking her place beside Ryan.
"What the hell is going on?" I was screaming inside in confusion.
"Ok, so where were you Mr. Qazi?" Sarah hunched over Zen, blushing.
"Will you marry me Sarah?"
"Are you sure?" Sarah offered her hand to him.
"I don't want to be..." And he finally did the honors and pulled her in his arms.
"It's party time..." Aahna hailed.
"Party! Party! Partyyyy." Yana exclaimed excitingly and shook Zen's shoulder like a child, making him consider her request.
I was looking everything like an asshole, fighting back to hide the cornucopia of pain, tears and remorse, which was secretly brawling within me to ooze out. On one hand, I was somewhere relaxed, but on the other hand, was filled with guilt for all those baseless thoughts which grew in me for her, moments back. I learned something that day, something that made my love stronger for her, something she changed in me, which is still a mystery for me. I was dying to take her in my arms, dying to tell her I can't live without her anymore, dying to caress her, but I had to figure out what was she hiding from me if it wasn't Zen?
It was 7 in the evening and we all were waiting in my car for Yana, to explore a place called 'Acme of dreams' which according to them was one of the most mesmerizing places in Shimla, settled in seclusion in the arms of beauty and covered with elevated mountains, outlined with two silently crawling lakes in the mist.
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Replies to Comments-
Penny - Thank you dear.
Mayuri - Hmm, it's good to know one more name of one of my readers. Thanks for appreciating my work dear.
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