A Daughter's Thought...

Relationships tend to be quite tricky
They send me into a dizzy

Father I knew, was not to be
Father who had to be, was not be

Years gone by, not a word heard
Out of the blue someone comes calling

Do I feel happy, do I feel content?
Or should I ponder upon what should have been?

My share of laughter, my share of love
Was it even mine or only for those who came after?

Fathers are the pillars of support
For this daughter, it's a hornets nest

I don't know what went by,
I don't know how hard you tried

Through the dark road of despair
I found my way to self-support and self-reliance

Do I still need you, I wonder?
I think not, as the need was never felt

Disconcert is the only emotion
Your sudden presence makes me feel

You are still as good as not there
No change I see happening around

I feel no hatred, I feel no attachment
Acceptance is a long way ahead

The only bond that holds us together
Is your share of DNA in my creation

Never will I be able to call my father, 'Daddy'
It is not an excruciating agony I will bear all life

This is where I feel tempestuous towards you
'Cuz you still have someone to call you 'Daddy'

The poem appears chaotic to you
Utter chaos is what my mind is going through

So feel no hurt, feel no detest
I am just a daughter who learned to live without a father

Relationships tend to be quite tricky
They send me into a dizzy.