If Only

I thought you were just a friend
A mere friend who'd give me a hand
I always laugh when you say how you feel,
When you talk about love that's real.

But then, something happened,
Something magically changed!
My heart started beating faster whenever I see you
And now, why can't I look directly at you?

Then, the burning sensation when we touched,
It's like there's a candle inside me, lighten by a match.
The feeling that I thought was just for a friend,
Suddenly became love, and I don't understand.

One night of January,
When I became ready.
Ready to open and tell the world,
That I love you, yes you, I love you!

I know it took me a long time
Long time to realize this feeling of mine.
But please do understand.
That love is complicatedly mad.

On the night I was about to admit it,
Something happened that I want to delete.
It was meant to be a happy day,
But fate played and took you away.

If only I believed in you
Believed when you said, "I love you"
If only I grabbed the opportunities you gave,
Then you my darling, I should still have.

I'm sorry for being stubborn that time
Sorry for all favors declined.
Sorry for not being sensitive to you
For not noticing the pain I caused you.

But even if you’re gone now,
I know you still hear me somehow.
And though late, please do listen to me,
Cause I love you G, and in my heart you will always be.....