Acceptance

I fell in love, and to regret
To myself, I owed a debt
I took a drag, and heaved a sigh
Stomped out the cigarette so it would die
I looked up, at the cloudy mirror
Wished that it would be much clearer

I missed the colors of the fading day
Where I could feel myself convey
Everything that I hold dear
Even though I am never clear

This love was naught but a plague
So I forced myself to become vague
Generalities and technicalities
I was the poster-boy of neutrality

I sat and smiled as you faded
In a puddle I watched myself, jaded
You seemed so happy, what could I do
I sat and watched as the gray ensued

I lit up again, and wondered why
Why was I so content to stand by?
This is a wonder, this is a worry
However I seem to be in no hurry
I will continue to let my life go
I will not intervene in its natural flow