Pain

It hurts so bad holding back tears
Its said to be unhealthy
But after all the agonizing years
Its become a part of me
My emotions don't even show anymore
Its almost like I'm immune

But my heart is tore,
The rate of it is completely off tune
Though no one notices
And I'm guessing that's good
I don't want anyone to know this
Although maybe they should

Maybe I must tell of my pain
They might be able to help
But they won't understand my brain
Since they've never dealt
Yes it burns, yes it tears
This tiny blood filled organ, that until now, until HIM
I never even knew was there