"Gone"

Hatred fueling my veins with adrenaline...
Pain burning my eyes...
Knives at my wrists...
I hate you and I wish you gone...
In yet I love you and wish you close...
One third wants to forgive and forget..
But half of me knows that can never be...
Cruel as it may seem...
But you’re at fault...
I will not be the one to take the blame...
Again..
I love you, but you need to learn...
Life isn't fair...
And you can't always get what you want...
You know that...
What you've asked of me is too much...
I can not forgive you...
No matter how I try...
If you’re mad at me...
I can't see why...
What have I done so wrong?
You took my love...
Though you said you wouldn't.
All I have left is burning, sheering hatred.
Don't talk to me... Because I'm already gone...
Can't you see we have both been played?!?!
When will you finally see the truth?
You've had your fun... over and over...
Mine was for a mere 7 months...
And only with one person... him...
I loved him...
And NO not like you may think you feel...
This was absolute...
As though, I'd take him back after he played with my emotions...
after lied to me...
And after I couldn't take it... I found my comfort in you...
As I told you all this... you agreed I was right in my decision to be rid of him...
In yet after you talked to him you felt pity...
And the blindness made you believe his lies against the truth...
I don't want you to hurt, though the acid that burns in my veins begs for your painfully realization... But,
When the time comes and he's done with you... or you him...
I'll be waiting in the wings with a smile and comforting arms...
While I explain that you were a stupid fool in a soft monotone voice...
I'll whisper "I'm sorry, but I couldn't be your friend because the temptation of snapping his neck was too great"
Enough of poor delusions for now...
I'll bid you farewell till the day comes because you see...
I'm ALREADY gone!