A Poem

You tell me you love me.
You tell me you hate me.
Than you turn around,
You kiss me, you rape me.
What the fuck do I have to do,
Just to make you see?
See that the world doesn't
always have to be
so unforgiving and cold
and so goddamn lonely.
They're unjustifiable...
the things you do to me.
You won’t tell me the truth
You refuse to show yourself to reality.
Things don't have to be so bad
here in actuality.
Come up to the surface
go on, breathe deep.
You lean over,
give me a kiss on the cheek.
You feel good for a while
and you make love to me.
But give it a moment and you're back.
Back to feeling melancholy.
Or whatever the fuck you wanna call it,
I just don't see.
See how you act this way,
everything seems so good, you were happy.
Than hit me again
than turn around and say that you're sorry.
It isn't supposed to be that way.
Life's supposed to be peace and amicability,
Love and hope,
not sorrow and incongruity.
I don't want to do this but is there really a choice?
I mean I love you and all but I just may have to leave.
You say I can't turn my back on you, I don't dare.
But all I have to say to your nasty threat is....
"WATCH ME."