In My Mind

If they could only read my mind
They would know why
They would see me and know I try
To be open but in
To get rid of my sin
Trying to be a champion of a race that I can't win
Battling me
Fighting to be free
But I ask myself do I really want to be free
Have I learned to love me?
I ask myself that every day
But it doesn’t matter any way
Cause wrong is wrong
And I’m trapped
But I knew it all along
Just telling a story as if that were all
Playing the notes but not feeling the song
But because I care I play on
I just wish it were gone
That it were never there to begin with
Only if that were true
Then I wouldn't be set in a mind set of a blue
in a life that’s split up in to too
What do I do
Go on feeling alone
Or take a risk and play my own song
Will they listen
Or ignore my plying long
Who knows
But I can’t take it anymore
Cause my passion grows
And refuses to go
And its whatever to you so...
I let it be
And just keep it to me
And G.O.D.
Cause in the end that’s all I need
To kill the seed