Confusion

I’m sobbing again
Stupid girl, stupid me
I want to be better
But I can’t be different
I hold myself together
As my soul dissolves
Into the familiar emptiness
Empty world, empty life
Can’t forget your eyes
When they judge and scold
"I promise I'll stop cutting"
I whisper into the darkness
As I reach for the razor
Just one more time
What’s one more scar
I should stop this now
Cut slow, cut deep
My head begins to ache
As I stare at the newest reminder
That I'm not happy anymore
My eyes sting
Fresh tears fall down my face
I shouldn't have done it
I promised myself
And now it's too late
My wrists bleed
Falling onto the floor
Bright crimson droplets
Now I fall as well
Can’t stand it anymore
Cry for life, cry for death
I keep on crying
All through the night
Until my body fails
... Until I'm asleep
In a bed of blood and tears