Silently

At night I cry silently
I hide my face from myself
During the day I put
On a mask and fool the
Very best now I feel that
I am dying I feel all
Through out my body
I can't live like this anymore
I really want to die there
Is nothing right going on
In my life it's gotten to the
Point where I can't remember
The last time I had ever been happy
I don't even have to
Happy I just want feeling this way
My body is full of pain
And I don't know why, all I am
Doing here is waiting to die
I hide what happen to me in
The past because I think that
I like the feeling being weak
Since everyone knows I am
Strong I know how to put my
Strength by killing myself
Instead of living not knowing
Anything about myself
I think that if someone
Could help me it would be him
But he hates me now and
I just feel so much pain
Please help me someone
I think my mask is slipping
I can still fool others but
I can't fool myself anymore
Someone God help me