Tears

If I give up tonight let the pain bleed away
Would you hate me for ever
It’s never goodbye
Even if my life bleeds away
A single drop 4 every tear
If I told you to walk away
Would you listen
I know you don’t understand
As my life bleeds away
I smile at the memory of the sweet times
Never said thank you for them
Letting go is not so easy when you leave so much behind
But holding on is just too hard
Every bruise and every drunken word
The beatings get easier when you become numb
The bleeding will stop so with this perpetual pain
Never wanted to be daddies little girl
Never wanted to be protected
Never had the memories
Never was anyone’s little princess
Saw the tears and the pain to long
My world never stopped spinning
The little girl is still here
And still alone
Never wanted much
Just a kiss goodnight
The world is still too big
It’s still scary and I’m still alone
Learnt to cry the pain away
I smiled for the world
While the blood spills
Thought that someday someone will save me
But he was too late
I lost myself
Gave up long before my smile faded
Learnt to take the beatings
My way or no way
As the blood pours out so does the pain
Tears for the good and the bad time
The sweet and the sour
The friends and the enemies
Things I wanted to say but never said
Things I said but never meant
One last time down memory lane
A single sweet memory
A single tear
Last drop of blood
Final note in my song
Saying goodbye for good
A symphony written with the tears and the blood
For my memories will fade
I will become part off the world I once left
Just a drop
The last drop
Of blood
I smile as the darkness takes me away
To a place I dreamt of as a little girl
Where dreams come true
Where the world has stopped spinning.