My Wish That I Belore

I heard you smile.
I heard you laugh.
I got my one last wish.
Now may I go?
Can I see the light that we all wish to see?
May I go to soar to heavens above.

I got my wish,
But is it true?
Can I believe you?
I wish I could.
I wish I could laugh and say i love you.
But I can not do so.

I have just wanted to hear you laugh,
To feel your smile.
For I got that now.
But more did I get.
I got more than my wish.
Beyond my gravestone.

Yes I do love you,
But all I wanted was your smile,
Your laugh and joy.
Now we talk to each other,
But I do not enjoy.
I got more than my wish could bargain for.

I am happy I got you back,
Back into my arms.
But you are still you.
And I have changed into someone else,
Never to know.
I am stuck within my soul.

I am quiet
And do not speak aloud,
I do not tell anyone my feelings belore,
I hold them in,
And cry them out,
Scream and shout.

I am not happy to be,
I want my time to end.
I still want to see the light,
Up above my pain crying heart.
For my heart has gotten broke so many times,
Now never will it be hole again.

I got my wish,
But more than I bargain forget.
It is heavier than my gravestone,
That I belore.
I want to hear your voice every second
Every day.

But want myself to be able to soar
Soar of the world unknown.
I want to fly away,
Be free and unknown.
But I want your voice
To travel within me.

Confusing I know,
Confused am I.
I do not know what road to take.
I shall never know till I explore.
I want to travel the worlds unknown.
But not by myself.

But with a heat so full.
I want a friend to travel within.
Share the memories I behold.
Share the laughs,
Not only of my own.
Love to share and behold.

I got my wish.
But only half of it is full.
I only now wish
I had not ever met you before.